A good shoe is
missed when a bad one starts biting. Oxygen is felt more when it is scarce. Few
weeks ago, I turned 29 and the list of things which gets my attention more
because they are no more there, is getting longer and longer.
I started losing hair noticeably ever since I entered into the
3rd decade of my life. Thankfully this is something money (in my case, Master
Card) can buy and I had a hair transplant 4 years ago. The result was quite
good and it remained good till I started losing rest of my original hair. Now I
don’t know if I'll have another transplant or not but my attention span to my
hair has grown forever.
There is no standard
way to measure the ability of memorization.
but if I have to go by guts then my ability to remember new names and recent
happenings has been reduced to 1/3 of what it used to be at teenage. The sharp
good memory was always so taken for granted that I still silently hope that my
guts are giving me the wrong signal.
Often being laughed
at for being under weight at young age, my body
Fat is increasing at appx. 1% of total body weight every year. The
target of "get slim" has slowly transitioned to "get less
fat". The only progress so far is the progress of transition itself.
Sleeping (one of the 3 best things in life, the
other two being eating and having sex) early or at will has never been in my
control. But once I used to get sleep, having a good sleep like a baby was a
built-in, fundamental and obvious feature of life. Now the duration is
shortened and the quality has degraded.
It took me 4 years
to complete Hifz-e-Quran, 13 to complete school till 10th Grade, 2 more to
complete Higher secondary school and then 4 more to become a Bachelor in
Computer Science. 8 years since then, and my Educational
Qualification is virtually stagnant. Once an ambition and then a wish,
growing career and social responsibilities have turned acquiring Masters degree
now into a distant dream.
In a human mind,
thoughts come and go at hundredth fractions of a second. One can have
essentially millions of thoughts a day. Among those million opportunities,
whenever I compare myself with my other peers, I always find myself "above-average" in most regards. Now If you
are reading this post from the beginning than you might consider it an over
estimation, but then a vast majority of people at Orkut have described
themselves having above-average looks (giving the whole new meaning to the word
"average" :D) .
Loss always
accompanies a gain. Some times for some other person and other times for the
same person. Among the many other things which I have gained from the losses is
a realization that I don't have to lose something before I could start appreciating it. Like an acquired skill, the
realization has slowly been evolved in me with time.
I have realized that
there are countless things in my life which I like them for being there. Almost
every person, every moment and everything has some good to offer which others
can't. There is so much in my life which deserves appreciation. The early self-actualization
through my parents. The intense desire to grow up (and now not to grow up
further), acquiring wealth of knowledge at madrasah and school. The useless
time I spend with my friends, the books I read, my thoughts, my sense of
dressing, my writings, moments that I spent with my wife, moments I spent with
her when she wasn't my wife, sometimes car driving, stalking semi anonymous
people at Face book, intense debates with friends and unknown people on
internet forums, creating my own computer software, movies I watch, plans I
make to get organized and then assuming that I'll achieve them, presentations I
do to my customers, the fatty food I eat and the running I do on treadmill,
taking photographs, gossiping about friends with other friends, and the list is
endless.
I have created this
blog to bring some of these appreciations on the record. Every blog post would
be a subtle appreciation in form of the knowledge shared in that post. As you
are reading this blog, you already know some aspect of me,(and particularly if
you know me in real life), I owe you an appreciation and thanking for being
part of my life.
The
blog is dedicated to me and everything and every one that makes me
"Me".
